A little self-analysis can be a good thing

I am fairly self-destructive at heart. I am aware of this.

I tend to work at things at first, but once things are going well, I start fucking with people. I start to push the limits, see what I can get away with. This applies to just about everything. Relationships (romantic and otherwise), work, pipe bands... everything.

At work, I'll start to do less and less... show up later and later. Sometimes not at all. Sometimes without even calling in. The problem is when I get away with it, I'll do more. Until I get busted and (of course) shit on by my boss. At my old job, I used to make my own long weekends a lot just by calling in sick from other area codes. They were gerenally unimpressed, but fuck them. At my new job, however, I kinda feel bad cuz I really like my boss, so I don't do that much. I just take days off with lieu time without really asking...

In the band, I get comfortable with having a season or two under my belt, and instead of picking up music as fast as I'm capable of, I put it off, and don't learn it until I absolutely have to. I'm also far more likely to blow off practice when I'm confident of my place than when I'm still new.

Really, neither of those make many waves, as I tend to do good enough work, or be a good enough player to get away with it. It's really only with friends and such that this becomes an issue. Thankfully, despite my best efforts, I haven't alienated any good friends (that I know of) through my generally discourteous behaviour, but I'm pretty sure this has sabotaged (intentionally and unintentionally) enough relationships that had more than enough potential just because I like to push boundaries.