Self-Important vs. Self-Indulgent

That's the ultimate question when it comes to blogging and the "blogosphere".

Does one write a blog because they think their opinion matters? Or because they just have an opinion, and they can?

When it comes right down to it, it almost has to be a bit of both... with a bit of procrastination thrown in there.... but I can honestly say that I really just use this space (as the subtitle suggests) to spew out the crap that fills my brain, and empty it out somehow. I wish I was kidding. At the risk of sounding like a complete schizo, you don't want to know the volume of disjointed thoughts that bounce around in my head every day. I actually find writing here somewhat cathartic in that it actually allows me to focus on other parts of my life. I guess that's why, for the most part, what I write is pretty random. I don't really write about work, or hobbies, or whatever personal crap is going on, because I want to be able to give those their due time. I write here about all the other stuff that occupies my mind. Clean house, if you will.

You may have noticed that I can be somewhat sporadic in my posting, as in I can go a few days at a time without posting much of consequence, and then just have a flurry of seemingly random and unrelated topics appear. Sometimes that has to do with computer access, but more often than not, I just don't have anything to say. I was really scrambling for a couple of weeks there, but this weekend was spent with some of my more stimulating friends, and with conversations ranging from a comparitive discussion of Missionaries vs. the formation of the British Commonwealth vs. the current US occupation of Iraq and their perhaps not totally different goals, to why there aren't more pink Cadillacs in Macton, ON, to a discussion regarding how Harrington's Theory can be broken down to a matter of one person dividing up the lunches, and the other chooses which one to eat, and even the ultimate line of the weekend.

In short, if I get in a rut, I have little to say. Call it a bit of motivation to keep life interesting?

All that said, it occurs to me.... I have little-to-no idea who reads this thing. Seriously. I know many of whom who read it, but I find out pretty regularly that there are people who either don't, or never knew about it... and seeing as I'm one of those types to try and keep my nerdiness to myself for the most part, you won't often see me trying to pick up a girl with the URL to my blog. Just not gonna happen (and those four words are applicable on several levels to that scenario).

Really, it comes down to the fact that I really treat this as a forum for things I need to get off my chest, regardless of the audience... well, to some degree. Obviously with some people at work glancing here now and again, I have to keep it somewhat on the up-and-up.

But, what's the point?

I guess the main thrust here is that I'd like even those of you who are very close to me to perhaps learn something about what makes me tick. I like to consider myself somewhat multi-faceted, and it's really only a handful, if any, of my friends that are really aware of everything that goes on in my life and my head...

Okay, maybe I'm more of the first one than I thought........